Longing...

...in the shape of a man that's 'verboten' to me...

ARRRRRGH. WTF? I should be above all this you know. Why now?

'4AM knows all my secrets...'

I am sitting here, waiting for coffee to finish brewing so I can go outside and sit in the slightly chilled, sunshiny day and drink out of one of those coffee cups that has a picture of a cartoony girl on it with the word 'girl' under the picture and next to it is a picture of a pig with the word 'boy' scribbled below in kindergarten-esque hand writing.

Geez. I don't need this....

Up til 4AM 're-connecting' cause I couldn't sleep and sat talking to him I mean for hours. I'd try to do other things but I knew my mind was going to fast to sleep so I kept hesitating to just go to bed. Instead I decided to write him an e-mail and all of a sudden find out he's up too - he can't sleep so we just end up talking more...only I don't know if this is a pattern with him not sleeping cause it sure as hell isn't usually this way with me...as evidenced by the headache I now have from lack thereof.

As I said...it's like we picked right back up where we left off. Only this time I think it's way more serious...and that's a problem....perhaps not. I sure the hell hope not.