Awash in emotions...
I feel like Deanna Troy....my 'empathy' is on hyper drive and other feelings are crowding me as well - making my internal emotional map feel like riding through the Rocky Mountains on a tricycle...
I've been pretty emotional since having to make the decision about taking a new job. Not that I will miss this 'transitional' job I had to take - it's the people I've met...I have wonderful people here...sure there is one exception and she's a biggie (LOL in more ways than one....sorry did *I* say that?)...anyway it's been rough.
Then today, one of our friends (Erin's actually but he has become mutual) - sent a txt msg to Erin about coming to grips with the finality of his marriage ending and his 'I am alone now and I hate it' brought me to sobs....
I am upset over the fact that I hardly ever see some of the people I adore...I don't know, life is too busy, or they are, or I am and it's making me rather upset...perhaps I am not enough of a friend, perhaps I am lacking somehow...
On my way into the bldg where I work, the fierce wind was blowing and howling off the lake, and, as I walked towards the door, I spotted a piece of mail - someones Sears & Roebuck credit card payment had apparently not made it into a mail box. So to Mr. & Mrs. Wm. H. Bloom of cleveburg, please be advised I dropped your payment in the mail for you....
What makes all of this bearable is my love. This morning we went on an 'adventure' in search of a cup o'joe. He managed to fine me one of the best cups of coffee I have ever had, and got me an everything bagel to boot. He is becoming my everything in so many ways. Thank God for Erin.
Oh yeah Happy Diwali.
Blessings to you all.
Colette
I've been pretty emotional since having to make the decision about taking a new job. Not that I will miss this 'transitional' job I had to take - it's the people I've met...I have wonderful people here...sure there is one exception and she's a biggie (LOL in more ways than one....sorry did *I* say that?)...anyway it's been rough.
Then today, one of our friends (Erin's actually but he has become mutual) - sent a txt msg to Erin about coming to grips with the finality of his marriage ending and his 'I am alone now and I hate it' brought me to sobs....
I am upset over the fact that I hardly ever see some of the people I adore...I don't know, life is too busy, or they are, or I am and it's making me rather upset...perhaps I am not enough of a friend, perhaps I am lacking somehow...
On my way into the bldg where I work, the fierce wind was blowing and howling off the lake, and, as I walked towards the door, I spotted a piece of mail - someones Sears & Roebuck credit card payment had apparently not made it into a mail box. So to Mr. & Mrs. Wm. H. Bloom of cleveburg, please be advised I dropped your payment in the mail for you....
What makes all of this bearable is my love. This morning we went on an 'adventure' in search of a cup o'joe. He managed to fine me one of the best cups of coffee I have ever had, and got me an everything bagel to boot. He is becoming my everything in so many ways. Thank God for Erin.
Oh yeah Happy Diwali.
Blessings to you all.
Colette
posted by Colette at 7:25 AM
3 Comments:
My Love,
I'm very happy with the relationship that we have and all the adventures that we have as well - even the little ones like finding a cup of Joe in this desolate ghost-like town
Love,
Our adventures are wonderful no matter where they take place. I think this morning's hunt for the perfect cup of coffee was great fun.
"So to Mr. & Mrs. Wm. H. Bloom of cleveburg, please be advised I dropped your payment in the mail for you...."
aww mom , that made me tear up kinda, thats sooo utterly un selfish and sweet! <3 you soo much.. and the reason you are feeling the way you do, is because you care sooo much.. not a bad thing, just part of life, i remember as a teen, becoming soo upset over something going on with a friend, and feeling soo helpless. It is by far one of the worst feelings from your heart that you can experience ( other then a true loss), so I know how you feel, and I am sorry you have to experience it, if only every day was filled with love and butterfly's <3
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