For my son...
You know what...
I don’t have the strength
for this
I don’t want to
watch you hurt yourself
I can’t
I’d like to say
I am strong
But, I am not
Not anymore
I used to be
I used to be one of those
Lioness creatures
The ones that roared
And clawed and fought
Now I roar
But it’s impotent
I know
You think
you’re all grown up
But you’re not
You’re a boy still
A boy/king
Who can’t admit
He needs his mom
You want your freedom
Soon I’ll have no say
I suppose that’s how
Life is
And I’ll be
Left with memories
Of you
As my baby
I will cling to them
But they won’t
Sustain me or
Squelch my fears
And someday
When I am gone
I hope you will
Remember me
And all the times
I held you close
Trying to keep
The world at bay
I don’t have the strength
for this
I don’t want to
watch you hurt yourself
I can’t
I’d like to say
I am strong
But, I am not
Not anymore
I used to be
I used to be one of those
Lioness creatures
The ones that roared
And clawed and fought
Now I roar
But it’s impotent
I know
You think
you’re all grown up
But you’re not
You’re a boy still
A boy/king
Who can’t admit
He needs his mom
You want your freedom
Soon I’ll have no say
I suppose that’s how
Life is
And I’ll be
Left with memories
Of you
As my baby
I will cling to them
But they won’t
Sustain me or
Squelch my fears
And someday
When I am gone
I hope you will
Remember me
And all the times
I held you close
Trying to keep
The world at bay
1 Comments:
sxxyd,
*hugs*
Yes he DOES realise - but deep down both he and I know he needs to rebel. I absolutely LOVE what you wrote about the same boy's face but with changed eyes - how very poignant.
I want him to very much be the person he is meant to be - it just hurts sometimes - especially when it's your last baby to leave the nest...
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