Drowning my sorrows

*sigh* NO - unfortunately not in Haagen-Dazs ice cream...

I am home now - because my class had to be cancelled - so I got to forage for food - ended up making portabella ravioli which were then sauteed in butter and sprinkled with Parmesean cheese (OK well at least it wasn't a pint of ice cream - had I been thinking on the way home I'd have stopped to get some...)- so I sat eating ravioli and watching the end of the movie 'Matchstick Men'(great flick).

So class was cancelled by me because I got to the studio and lo and behold had no heat. Considering when they fixed the roof they did not re-do all the duct work this came as no surprise to me - however my 'partner' Mr. F - had heated up the room last week prior to class (with a rocket-engine like space heater that sounded like a blow torch)and told me he'd work on getting us heat in that room. Well when I got into my classroom tonight, and the temp was about 50 degrees I knew I had to call my students and cancel...

After I called all 2 of my students I called Mr. F - and said: "Scott - there's no heat in here!"

"Yeah I know" says Mr. F.

I said: "Well I cancelled class, Scott I just can't teach under these circumstances".

"Yeah I hear ya babe" he says.

I went off: "No, Scott you're not hearing me and don't call me babe! If everytime I come here to teach there is some new problem to deal with then I can't be a good teacher. On top of that, I can't be expected to pay you $175 per month PLUS give you 40% of my take when my take is only $20 per week. I can't go into the hole for you, and I won't I told you I did not have any capital to work with and you seemed to be OK with that - you wanted ME to be YOUR Yoga teacher. I am not going to teach through the winter in a room with no heat and no access to the thermostat and I really think you need to re-think this Yoga 'idea' of yours. I don't mind being your Yoga teacher but if I am going to have studio space it needs to function as such and we need to seriously build up a clientele BEFORE we jump off this cliff - we need to talk!"

He says: "I know we do C - I am gonna call Dave (our landlord) right now and work on the heat thing."

I said OK told him I loved him regardless and hung up....

*SIGH*

I want my own space to teach in - it's my dream...in fact my 'Yoga' dream is to network with other teachers, form a collective, teach all over the place, teach inner-city kids (and adults) Yoga, and have a thriving business - it's a tall order but I can see it happening. I just need to get my shit together and do it...with or without Mr. F -