Happiness is....
You know…
I can not get over how easy it is for us to ‘talk’, how we are able to ‘talk’, and all myriad of issues/subjects we end up ‘talking’ about .
I have never been with anyone that challenges me like he does. I have never been with anyone I enjoy talking to as much as I do him. I am just so completely at ease with this man – it’s almost frightening.
Last night, my son was trying to throw some ‘cold water’ on me – he’s a bit cynical (and for the record so am I). He says to me "Wait until you guys have a fight Mom, things will change then.” While he may be correct – I don’t think so. I just don’t see down the road where we are going to get that angry with each other as to throw away such a wonderful relationship – again I may be wrong – but I am hopeful that this will be the person I want to be with from here on out. I have never felt this comfortable before and as I said it’s rare for me to be feeling like this so soon…
I am not sure how he feels about this. I know it’s come rather quickly for him too – sometimes I do worry about that a bit. Like me, he falls in love easily – unlike me he’s out of his marriage sooner (but not really if you count the ‘death’ of the relationship) – but yes there are hesitancies still – they are not things I am holding onto or things that are ‘stopping me in my tracks’. Mainly I worry that I may bore him, not be able to be as physical as he wants me to be, or perhaps that he might even be able to fall out of love as quickly as he can fall into love.
With me falling in love when I do decide I AM falling; when in my mind I commit, it’s usually forever unless something really drastic happens to change that. I am not fickle. I am loyal. I ‘stand by my man’, which is weird, considering I don’t see myself as a traditionalist.
We even had a conversation about why people wear wedding bands – I went off on how I feel they are not ‘important’ anymore. Mainly because I feel people don’t honour their vows. I am living proof that they don’t. What's a ring going to do to change that? I keep my faith in my heart (LOL which I seem to wear on my sleeve). If I am yours, you will know that. That is not to say I don’t want a ‘ring’ but I don’t need to be sporting some ‘choke a horse’ diamond (BTW, I am against diamonds that come from parts of Africa because they are ‘blood diamonds’ – if you don’t know what I am talking about stop reading this journal). Of course I am like any other woman - gifts of jewelry are nice and welcome, so are flowers, roses, etc. However, to me being committed to someone or agreeing to spend the rest of my life with someone has absolutely nothing to do with what I am wearing, at least not on my finger. It has to do with the writing in my heart and soul, an 'adornment' that has no equal.
I can not get over how easy it is for us to ‘talk’, how we are able to ‘talk’, and all myriad of issues/subjects we end up ‘talking’ about .
I have never been with anyone that challenges me like he does. I have never been with anyone I enjoy talking to as much as I do him. I am just so completely at ease with this man – it’s almost frightening.
Last night, my son was trying to throw some ‘cold water’ on me – he’s a bit cynical (and for the record so am I). He says to me "Wait until you guys have a fight Mom, things will change then.” While he may be correct – I don’t think so. I just don’t see down the road where we are going to get that angry with each other as to throw away such a wonderful relationship – again I may be wrong – but I am hopeful that this will be the person I want to be with from here on out. I have never felt this comfortable before and as I said it’s rare for me to be feeling like this so soon…
I am not sure how he feels about this. I know it’s come rather quickly for him too – sometimes I do worry about that a bit. Like me, he falls in love easily – unlike me he’s out of his marriage sooner (but not really if you count the ‘death’ of the relationship) – but yes there are hesitancies still – they are not things I am holding onto or things that are ‘stopping me in my tracks’. Mainly I worry that I may bore him, not be able to be as physical as he wants me to be, or perhaps that he might even be able to fall out of love as quickly as he can fall into love.
With me falling in love when I do decide I AM falling; when in my mind I commit, it’s usually forever unless something really drastic happens to change that. I am not fickle. I am loyal. I ‘stand by my man’, which is weird, considering I don’t see myself as a traditionalist.
We even had a conversation about why people wear wedding bands – I went off on how I feel they are not ‘important’ anymore. Mainly because I feel people don’t honour their vows. I am living proof that they don’t. What's a ring going to do to change that? I keep my faith in my heart (LOL which I seem to wear on my sleeve). If I am yours, you will know that. That is not to say I don’t want a ‘ring’ but I don’t need to be sporting some ‘choke a horse’ diamond (BTW, I am against diamonds that come from parts of Africa because they are ‘blood diamonds’ – if you don’t know what I am talking about stop reading this journal). Of course I am like any other woman - gifts of jewelry are nice and welcome, so are flowers, roses, etc. However, to me being committed to someone or agreeing to spend the rest of my life with someone has absolutely nothing to do with what I am wearing, at least not on my finger. It has to do with the writing in my heart and soul, an 'adornment' that has no equal.
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