Swirling...
In my mind, my thoughts always swirling…traveling at the speed of light, streaming, endlessly streaming through my brain – consciousness on the knife’s edge...
What is it about relationships that make us all such dorks? I feel so fragile and so vulnerable – and this is not me at all – the ‘shiny-new-penny-feel’ is tarnished by other ‘issues’.
I don’t want to be this way – I want to be free of such triviality – yet somehow I feel the need to know things, to ask about things, to make sure that I am informed – like it makes any fucking difference what I find out or am being told...
I watch others that I love go through the permutations in their lives, in their relationships and I wonder if they too have these ‘urges’ to ask, to know, to question, to wonder, to seek...is this what ultimately destroys relationships; the wanting to know? Just how much ultimately are we suppose to reveal to one another...the lifting of the veils...
If we only realized that sometimes mystery holds us back, sometimes the only way in is through, and hiding behind that ‘enigma’ tagline only creates discourse between yourself and the one you are truly seeking to be closer to…sure a little mystery is nice – but I don’t much think it’s helpful when in the end all I really want is a relationship without all the need for subterfuge and/or second-guessing- I want the whole enchilada LOL or empanada as the case may be...
What is it about relationships that make us all such dorks? I feel so fragile and so vulnerable – and this is not me at all – the ‘shiny-new-penny-feel’ is tarnished by other ‘issues’.
I don’t want to be this way – I want to be free of such triviality – yet somehow I feel the need to know things, to ask about things, to make sure that I am informed – like it makes any fucking difference what I find out or am being told...
I watch others that I love go through the permutations in their lives, in their relationships and I wonder if they too have these ‘urges’ to ask, to know, to question, to wonder, to seek...is this what ultimately destroys relationships; the wanting to know? Just how much ultimately are we suppose to reveal to one another...the lifting of the veils...
If we only realized that sometimes mystery holds us back, sometimes the only way in is through, and hiding behind that ‘enigma’ tagline only creates discourse between yourself and the one you are truly seeking to be closer to…sure a little mystery is nice – but I don’t much think it’s helpful when in the end all I really want is a relationship without all the need for subterfuge and/or second-guessing- I want the whole enchilada LOL or empanada as the case may be...
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