Monkey Mind...

AAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

Yeah needed to get that out...

*sighs*

So incredibly scattered – maybe it’s the holidays.

I have to finish shopping – my son needs to get off his butt and give me some info. I still have to buy for my niece and nephew – does anyone know where I can get ‘High School Musical’ stuff?

I am under the gun – coming at me from many directions and taking many forms...I am fragile right now (and I SO hate being fragile).

People are getting to me, pulling at me – unseen forces - and all needing ‘something’ from me.

I want to slip away, unnoticed, fade into the background, become ‘invisible’ (note to some of you out there I realise for you that you might hate the idea/notion of being ‘invisible’ but to me it can be kind of comforting in some ways).

I feel a bit lost. I can’t get away from feeing scattered not focused – I need to concentrate on me and find myself too busy at times to do so. Need to work out – need to meditate.

Feeling like I need comfort too – and I don’t know why – and I hate sounding ‘needy’ I despise that as well. It may just be echoes of the neediness around me – oh and for the record, I am not referring to family/friends/lovers on this – I hope you all know if you need ANYTHING from me I am here for you…

I could just use a nice quiet evening by a fire or a lot of candles and some music or veg out by watching a movie...