Downhill all the way and the 'M' word revisited...
Weekend re-cap – for those playing the home version...
Erin’s weekend with the kids. Normally I would not be with him Friday night and since he seemed irritated when we talked I was pretty sure I would not see him in the evening. He had asked me to go skiing on Saturday so I was out and about (after a short nap) looking for ‘snow/ski’ pants. He called and asked me to come over.
I went to his place where he was working on the bathroom, the kids there – his daughter upstairs with the neighbor girls – both of them are a handful – but cute.
I played with the girls and after the kids went to bed, spent time snuggling and talking (what else) with my love.
Went home got some rest. Got up the next morning and headed over to Erin’s to go on our ski adventure. I have been on skis exactly once before this and I remember not liking it – I managed then but this time I was not sure. We got on the road (later than Erin wanted) and headed out to Alpine Valley. It was beautiful out – plenty of snow on the ground as we neared the resort. Got there and got geared up. It was very crowded and we were lined up for a lesson. I did well until I started falling – I felt like dead weight so it was hard to get up. I struggled but had fun. When it came time to get on the tow rope/j-bar’ I fell (yet again), and decided enough was enough. I should not have wimped out but I also felt like I needed more of a lesson to be really comfy with skiing. (Part of me is thinking I might actually do better with snow-boarding - C2 some help here?)
Erin’s daughter took to the sport like a duck to water. Erin of course is the true athlete so he had done this before – he has a grace about him and it’s one of the things I love about him. His son struggled as well and he wanted to stop – so he and I went and ‘de-geared’ ourselves and waited for the other two to finish. I know it was hard for Erin’s son and I tried to be of comfort – I felt woefully inadequate here – but he eventually was calmed. We went for a snack and then decided to go ‘tubing’. This was the highlight of the day. We had a blast. I could have stayed all night.
We headed home to make dinner for the kids and ended up watching ‘Mary Poppins’ – the more time I spend with them the more I feel like a family. Erin and I snuggled and talked more after the kids went down. I left him (*pouts*) and went back to my house – planning on meeting them the next day at mass. Erin called me while I was driving home to tell me how beautiful the snow was and that he was thinking of me and to say good night. The snow *was* beautiful and so is he...
Sunday I woke up and got ready to go to mass. We went to the grocery store afterwards and then headed to his house to have lunch. Both Erin and I had a headache – after lunch he decided to lie down and I went up to keep him company. Again the neighbor girls were over. The littlest one kept coming up to talk with Erin and I while we rested on his bed. Erin seemed to be dozing so I decided to leave. The kids were struggling with the VCR so I helped them to ‘fix’ it to put the ‘Pokemon’ tape in. As I did this the C - , the neighbor girl asked: ‘C, are you going to marry Erin?’ – stunned I sat there for a minute. ‘I don’t know honey’ was all I could muster, turning my ring around on my finger…then Erin’s daughter said to me: ‘I’d like you to marry my dad’. WOW! ‘Why honey?’ I asked. ‘Cause you are nice and I like you’ she replied.
I went upstairs because I had to share this with Erin.
I went home. Promptly got into a huge argument with my son. Took a little break and then headed out again to go to Erin’s because we were going to meet up with one of our on-line friends, Michael who was flying in form Texas for a job interview. We went to his hotel to pick him up and ended up going to the Olive Garden restaurant. Erin’s daughter was very shy and stayed close to me – letting me hold her. We bumped into my friend Sheila and her husband John – very pleasant surprise. I showed her my ring and we talked briefly.
We had a nice dinner with Michael. I spent the time between conversations playing with Erin’s daughter. At one point she hugged me and told me she loved me and told me she’d like me to be her ‘mommy’ again I was stunned. I told her she had a mommy and that her mom loved her very much. She said: ‘But I only get to see her every 2 weeks’ I had no answer for this. She then said it would be OK for me to be her step-mom too. I assured her that I cared for her very much and got her back into the routine of playing again.
(*let’s out a held breath*)
Erin and I discussed this a bit – I am feeling overwhelmed a bit by all of this. We have not told the kids the news yet…but I have a feeling that his daughter already knows we are planning to get married. I don’t think either one of the kids is going to have a hard time with me – I am just hoping that I can be the kind of step-mom they need me to be. All I know is that I love both of his kids and I look forward to being with them as a family.
Now if I could just pick myself and keep from falling down all the time, things would be wonderful.
Erin’s weekend with the kids. Normally I would not be with him Friday night and since he seemed irritated when we talked I was pretty sure I would not see him in the evening. He had asked me to go skiing on Saturday so I was out and about (after a short nap) looking for ‘snow/ski’ pants. He called and asked me to come over.
I went to his place where he was working on the bathroom, the kids there – his daughter upstairs with the neighbor girls – both of them are a handful – but cute.
I played with the girls and after the kids went to bed, spent time snuggling and talking (what else) with my love.
Went home got some rest. Got up the next morning and headed over to Erin’s to go on our ski adventure. I have been on skis exactly once before this and I remember not liking it – I managed then but this time I was not sure. We got on the road (later than Erin wanted) and headed out to Alpine Valley. It was beautiful out – plenty of snow on the ground as we neared the resort. Got there and got geared up. It was very crowded and we were lined up for a lesson. I did well until I started falling – I felt like dead weight so it was hard to get up. I struggled but had fun. When it came time to get on the tow rope/j-bar’ I fell (yet again), and decided enough was enough. I should not have wimped out but I also felt like I needed more of a lesson to be really comfy with skiing. (Part of me is thinking I might actually do better with snow-boarding - C2 some help here?)
Erin’s daughter took to the sport like a duck to water. Erin of course is the true athlete so he had done this before – he has a grace about him and it’s one of the things I love about him. His son struggled as well and he wanted to stop – so he and I went and ‘de-geared’ ourselves and waited for the other two to finish. I know it was hard for Erin’s son and I tried to be of comfort – I felt woefully inadequate here – but he eventually was calmed. We went for a snack and then decided to go ‘tubing’. This was the highlight of the day. We had a blast. I could have stayed all night.
We headed home to make dinner for the kids and ended up watching ‘Mary Poppins’ – the more time I spend with them the more I feel like a family. Erin and I snuggled and talked more after the kids went down. I left him (*pouts*) and went back to my house – planning on meeting them the next day at mass. Erin called me while I was driving home to tell me how beautiful the snow was and that he was thinking of me and to say good night. The snow *was* beautiful and so is he...
Sunday I woke up and got ready to go to mass. We went to the grocery store afterwards and then headed to his house to have lunch. Both Erin and I had a headache – after lunch he decided to lie down and I went up to keep him company. Again the neighbor girls were over. The littlest one kept coming up to talk with Erin and I while we rested on his bed. Erin seemed to be dozing so I decided to leave. The kids were struggling with the VCR so I helped them to ‘fix’ it to put the ‘Pokemon’ tape in. As I did this the C - , the neighbor girl asked: ‘C, are you going to marry Erin?’ – stunned I sat there for a minute. ‘I don’t know honey’ was all I could muster, turning my ring around on my finger…then Erin’s daughter said to me: ‘I’d like you to marry my dad’. WOW! ‘Why honey?’ I asked. ‘Cause you are nice and I like you’ she replied.
I went upstairs because I had to share this with Erin.
I went home. Promptly got into a huge argument with my son. Took a little break and then headed out again to go to Erin’s because we were going to meet up with one of our on-line friends, Michael who was flying in form Texas for a job interview. We went to his hotel to pick him up and ended up going to the Olive Garden restaurant. Erin’s daughter was very shy and stayed close to me – letting me hold her. We bumped into my friend Sheila and her husband John – very pleasant surprise. I showed her my ring and we talked briefly.
We had a nice dinner with Michael. I spent the time between conversations playing with Erin’s daughter. At one point she hugged me and told me she loved me and told me she’d like me to be her ‘mommy’ again I was stunned. I told her she had a mommy and that her mom loved her very much. She said: ‘But I only get to see her every 2 weeks’ I had no answer for this. She then said it would be OK for me to be her step-mom too. I assured her that I cared for her very much and got her back into the routine of playing again.
(*let’s out a held breath*)
Erin and I discussed this a bit – I am feeling overwhelmed a bit by all of this. We have not told the kids the news yet…but I have a feeling that his daughter already knows we are planning to get married. I don’t think either one of the kids is going to have a hard time with me – I am just hoping that I can be the kind of step-mom they need me to be. All I know is that I love both of his kids and I look forward to being with them as a family.
Now if I could just pick myself and keep from falling down all the time, things would be wonderful.
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