Wedding Bell Blues....

It’s hard to get into the frame of mind/mood to plan a wedding.

Time is a constraint here – there’s almost too much of it – yes time flies and since I am having fun it will fly faster. However, Erin needs an annulment and only God knows (pun intended) when that will happen.

So...we can’t set a date – which is fine (I think).

Being the thinker that I am…I sometimes obsess over things (No, Colette! Say it ain’t so…) anyhow I think about the planning and what exactly to plan.

We are not newlyweds, either of us. We’ve been down AN aisle before. So there’s not going to be a lot of fuss and bother. Again, very nice.

This will be my first time getting married in a church. So that means I need to shop for a dress/gown (ugh!) – I hate this kind of thing – I never think I look good in such attire.

Since it will be in a church this also means things like who/how many people should be in the wedding party, flowers, whether or not to have a photographer (I really don’t care), where to hold a reception ( since we have agreed to late spring or summer I’d LOVE to have an outside reception), how many people to invite, catering for the reception, favours, where to go for a honeymoon – most importantly, how the fuck are we going to pay for this?

Nuts – it’s nuts. I see what brides go through. I always swore I would not and for the most part I did not. I don’t think I will this time either but the idea of putting this together seems a bit daunting.

We don’t (well I don’t – I think Erin is in agreement here) wish to register for gifts. I think we are going to ask people to donate to a charity in our name.

I don’t think we want to have an open bar – sorry kids suck it up. Wine with dinner, a champagne toast – MAYBE cocktails but I just don’t like that idea. People getting drunk never appealed to me.

Then there’s the music – do we have a DJ? Do we hire a band (I am not sure I want a band there – hey maybe my son’s band…um, never mind – wait a minute – his drum teacher is in like 3 bands….hmmmmm).

I have begun a list of guests. I have asked 2 people to be part of the wedding party already. I am not sure who else to ask part of this depends on Erin and who he wants to ask as well.

I am very much looking forward to both the celebration of our love and the marriage to follow. I am giddy with all the feelings. I am just feeling a little overwhelmed and like before you know it the day will be here….so I want to really get stuff together.

There are things I can do and some things I HAVE done to make myself feel like I am getting something accomplished. So it’s not so bad. I think next month I am going to actually take some girlfriends, have a lunch, get some ideas and even go dress shopping.

There is much joy and a little nervousness as I prepare to become the bride…I can’t wait to be Erin’s wife and spend the rest of my life waking up to him.