Sweetness and severed fingers...
Yeah...so sue me, weird title for a post but hey, it's before bedtime, I am up, tired, but too wired to sleep and nervous as hell - more on that in a minute...so I am bloggin' folks - watch yourselves, that first step is a doozie....
Finishing up relating my experiences from this weekend as it comes to an end.
Right before I left Erin's he had us sign one of the floor boards under the bathroom tile he is just finishing up. He wrote his name, I wrote mine then he wrote the year (2007 for the calender impaired) and he drew a big heart around it - kind of like carving our initials in a tree only different. He is such a sentimentalist and so romantic - he makes my heart sing (like 'Wild Thing' only... OK I will stop now..)
I went home began to clean and do laundry - I guess it's kind of like I am torn between two homes here...
So I go to get Chinese food and I was waiting for my shrimp with broccoli when I noticed the 'vending' game machine in their lobby - it was one of those 'claw' machines and there were dismembered rubber fingers....um....ewwww. It was disturbing on so many levels and every single one of the friggin' things was pointing up...um....ewwww....
I kept trying to read the 'Family' Zine while waiting and like a car accident my eyes kept getting drawn back to the fingers in the 'game' - silently swearing to myself if I got home and one of the shrimp was a finger...there'd be hell to pay.
*smirks*
Went home, ate, did dishes, started laundry...finally went over to my land-lord's to watch (*gasp*) the Superbowl game. Interesting and dare I even say exciting game...nice. Go Colts! And the half-time show...OK look I am just gonna come out and say it - (and please I don't even want to hear it from ANY of you out there - I happen to really like Prince (and not a comment about THAT either))...
What the hell was with the 'Aunt Jemima' look???????
Sorry...
Moving right along. Came home - I am in horrible pain (in my sacral area - don't know why...)
Tonight Erin called to let me know he told the kids...
So there you have it - this is why I am a nervous wreck. Erin's daughter took it well; his son is probably trying to wrap his brain around things...I am not worried about his daughter I AM worried about his son and hoping that any fears he may have we can ease for him.
I am always trying to be as careful and as cognizant of his kids and their feelings and how this impacts them as I can. Still there's a balance to be held because I love Erin as well and we have to nurture that love - not at the cost of the kids in any way - if I felt this was wrong for them, then, no matter how much I loved Erin I'd take my leave. So I am praying things will be OK for all of us...my son included.
So yeah...a bit scared, a bit jittery - and in a lot of physical pain - not a good combo - hopefully I will sleep tonight.
Bonne Soir mes amis
Fais de beaux rêves. (Have sweet dreams)
Finishing up relating my experiences from this weekend as it comes to an end.
Right before I left Erin's he had us sign one of the floor boards under the bathroom tile he is just finishing up. He wrote his name, I wrote mine then he wrote the year (2007 for the calender impaired) and he drew a big heart around it - kind of like carving our initials in a tree only different. He is such a sentimentalist and so romantic - he makes my heart sing (like 'Wild Thing' only... OK I will stop now..)
I went home began to clean and do laundry - I guess it's kind of like I am torn between two homes here...
So I go to get Chinese food and I was waiting for my shrimp with broccoli when I noticed the 'vending' game machine in their lobby - it was one of those 'claw' machines and there were dismembered rubber fingers....um....ewwww. It was disturbing on so many levels and every single one of the friggin' things was pointing up...um....ewwww....
I kept trying to read the 'Family' Zine while waiting and like a car accident my eyes kept getting drawn back to the fingers in the 'game' - silently swearing to myself if I got home and one of the shrimp was a finger...there'd be hell to pay.
*smirks*
Went home, ate, did dishes, started laundry...finally went over to my land-lord's to watch (*gasp*) the Superbowl game. Interesting and dare I even say exciting game...nice. Go Colts! And the half-time show...OK look I am just gonna come out and say it - (and please I don't even want to hear it from ANY of you out there - I happen to really like Prince (and not a comment about THAT either))...
What the hell was with the 'Aunt Jemima' look???????
Sorry...
Moving right along. Came home - I am in horrible pain (in my sacral area - don't know why...)
Tonight Erin called to let me know he told the kids...
So there you have it - this is why I am a nervous wreck. Erin's daughter took it well; his son is probably trying to wrap his brain around things...I am not worried about his daughter I AM worried about his son and hoping that any fears he may have we can ease for him.
I am always trying to be as careful and as cognizant of his kids and their feelings and how this impacts them as I can. Still there's a balance to be held because I love Erin as well and we have to nurture that love - not at the cost of the kids in any way - if I felt this was wrong for them, then, no matter how much I loved Erin I'd take my leave. So I am praying things will be OK for all of us...my son included.
So yeah...a bit scared, a bit jittery - and in a lot of physical pain - not a good combo - hopefully I will sleep tonight.
Bonne Soir mes amis
Fais de beaux rêves. (Have sweet dreams)
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