The dawn of a new day...

Just when I am feeling a bit out of sorts – worrying, doubting – something happens to renew my faith, my hope, my love. (Erin will do something 'little' like put a banana in my purse to take to work, wrapped in a napkin with a love note...)

There have been some rough patches lately – perhaps the only reason I pay attention is because it’s rare for us to have problems, to struggle. For the most part, this has to be one of the best relationships I have ever had. By that I mean this is the happiest I have EVER been, this is the most content I’ve been, this is the most fun I’ve had in a relationship, and dare I say: this is the most in love I’ve ever been.

Mainly our struggles lie with outside influences – but I can’t blame others (even if they truly have meant to cause harm or have been antagonistic towards our relationship (BTW WTF is up with that????)) – I have to at least put the blame on my own shoulders for my reactions to others actions/words. Again, I can’t speak for Erin...

I am here today…I have the migraine from hell – because I am trying to function on 3-4 hours of sleep. I cried last night. I was lost last night, I was unsure of my path last night. However, by the grace of God, and as cat/Princess is my witness (sorry it’s an inside joke) – that has changed and like the fog that gets burned off by the rising sun, my fears have faded, troubles lifted, worries subsided.

Today, I feel renewed in the strength of my love. My faith in our love and our relationship is strong and unwavering. I know we are going to hit bumps in the road together – but I am confident that as long as we love each other the way we seem too – everything else will pale in comparison.