'My love is like a red, red rose...'
Oh how I love him.
I have been emotional lately, scared, uneasy….there is much going on – much that would deter an ordinary person – even an extraordinary person.
But not when in love the way I am…the way WE are.
When I cry – when I am distraught, he seeks to comfort me. There is never a time when I feel totally alone in this relationship – of course I always feel the presence of God – so while any love relationship is important, it’s not the ‘end all, be all’ for me. But yeah we’ve said those words: ‘I don’t want to live without you in my life’
Last night, Erin told me how he felt about being around me. While I’ve heard him utter these words time and time again, I was in near shock hearing how strongly he felt – how much he wants me to be around him.
The problem becomes ‘marriage’. We want to be married NOW. This isn’t us just dabbling at this – we both know we want this – we both know that together we are a wonderful working team, we both know just how much we love one another. It becomes so hard separating form each other. We are trying to be patient. We are trying to wait for the annulment to come through – but it’s just really difficult and there are still issues to be worked out. Like I need to get my house in order etc.
I guess my patience – which is a virtue I don’t seem to possess – what little of it I DO have is wearing thin.
I have been emotional lately, scared, uneasy….there is much going on – much that would deter an ordinary person – even an extraordinary person.
But not when in love the way I am…the way WE are.
When I cry – when I am distraught, he seeks to comfort me. There is never a time when I feel totally alone in this relationship – of course I always feel the presence of God – so while any love relationship is important, it’s not the ‘end all, be all’ for me. But yeah we’ve said those words: ‘I don’t want to live without you in my life’
Last night, Erin told me how he felt about being around me. While I’ve heard him utter these words time and time again, I was in near shock hearing how strongly he felt – how much he wants me to be around him.
The problem becomes ‘marriage’. We want to be married NOW. This isn’t us just dabbling at this – we both know we want this – we both know that together we are a wonderful working team, we both know just how much we love one another. It becomes so hard separating form each other. We are trying to be patient. We are trying to wait for the annulment to come through – but it’s just really difficult and there are still issues to be worked out. Like I need to get my house in order etc.
I guess my patience – which is a virtue I don’t seem to possess – what little of it I DO have is wearing thin.
posted by Colette at 2:51 PM
2 Comments:
You do have patience dear. Because we talk about your frustrations and fears I know for a fact that you exercise that skill frequently.
1 : bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
2 : manifesting forbearance under provocation or strain
3 : not hasty or impetuous
4 : steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity
So far you have exhibited a lot of definitions 2, 3, 4. You haven't been overly complaining either. With a little bit of sharing and talking with me, it seems that calm returns to you too. I know the calm is the first thing I lose when stressed out, it's also tied to my anger.
We could both probably use some extra practice in maintaining a calm state during our trials and tribulations. This is what I'm talking about when I talk about me practicing not being angry.
ok, I hate blogger, I just typed out a whole entire like paragraph, and it totaly erased it!
So, what I was GOING to say is, alot of times in the bible, it says to pray, well following the prayer, alot is fasting. So I am wondering, mabey try fasting ( and no not the way catholics do it, it states in my bible that fasting should only be known to you and the Lord, in secret.) . But in fasting, you dont always have to just do meat, you can fast from almost anything :
~(1 Corinthians 7:5) Defraud ye not one the other, except, it be with consent for a time, that ye may give yourselves to fasting and prayer; and come together again, that Satan tempt you not for your incontinency.~
Here it is talking about a husband and wife fasting from one another in the bedroom, but only for a time, of prayer and fasting. So you can fast from anything, it just need to be truely from the heart, and something you strongly either love or desire. Just thought it might be a helpful idea, if not thats fine by me =)
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