Weirdness...
...abounds....
Just saying....
Sometimes life surprises you...things come out of left field and causes a shift in perceptions/paradigms shift...
I guess I just never thought some of the old wounds would heal...but lo and behold.
Every now and then I think about what led me to start writing on this blog...the drama, the anger, the fears, the betrayals. I think about whether or not I am still feeding/fanning those flames....
Sometimes, I do, old hurts can take a long time to go away....and don't get me wrong some of what transpired as much as I try - I will never forget and quite possible not completely forgive either....
Like just out of general principles, if I ran into that little tart on the street I probably would slap her - because I think helping to ruin/destroy not one but two families and continuing the pattern that she herself so abhorred makes it rather easy to be angry with/despise her - not that I feel I should waste my energy on such things - but some people are simply put on this earth to cause misery for others...until either they are stopped and/or learn their lessons. Perhaps she has learned - I don't know - my guess is no....but perhaps she has healed herself and perhaps the others whose lives she made hellish have forgiven...who knows...
But to find a space where I can feel at ease, even benevolent towards my ex...like whoa...where the hell did THIS come from?
Again who knows....but yeah it's quite a surprise.
Just saying....
Sometimes life surprises you...things come out of left field and causes a shift in perceptions/paradigms shift...
I guess I just never thought some of the old wounds would heal...but lo and behold.
Every now and then I think about what led me to start writing on this blog...the drama, the anger, the fears, the betrayals. I think about whether or not I am still feeding/fanning those flames....
Sometimes, I do, old hurts can take a long time to go away....and don't get me wrong some of what transpired as much as I try - I will never forget and quite possible not completely forgive either....
Like just out of general principles, if I ran into that little tart on the street I probably would slap her - because I think helping to ruin/destroy not one but two families and continuing the pattern that she herself so abhorred makes it rather easy to be angry with/despise her - not that I feel I should waste my energy on such things - but some people are simply put on this earth to cause misery for others...until either they are stopped and/or learn their lessons. Perhaps she has learned - I don't know - my guess is no....but perhaps she has healed herself and perhaps the others whose lives she made hellish have forgiven...who knows...
But to find a space where I can feel at ease, even benevolent towards my ex...like whoa...where the hell did THIS come from?
Again who knows....but yeah it's quite a surprise.
Labels: Irony, Life, Relationship, The Past
posted by Colette at 2:42 PM
1 Comments:
At the times of various breakups in my past I was bitterly angry, but as they say time heals all wounds, so once you are at a remove from the pain and anger, they tend to diminish. If they didn't we would all be bitter and vindictive all the time.
Revel in the freedom you've found from that pain and anger. Without the past as it was, you might not be in the beautiful place you are today?!
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