It's my party...
...and I'll die if I want to....
(Just kidding)
Anyhow...this weekend I will be passing another year mark in the 'awful rowing towards God' - as Anne Sexton calls it...
I feel it's time to take a bit of a life inventory.
The new job sucks - period. I use none of my 'creative juices' and it's my fault I admit - I took the first job I oculd - looking has become an exercise in futility {*gasp* I mentioned my futilities (sorry inside joke)}.
I have to get in better shape. I have to finish planning wedding stuff. I need to get more centered.
Last night, I applied to go to college for the spring term in 2009. We shall see where that leads. I think I am going to go to school on the weekends and try to re-shape my career - studying something meaningful and hopefully it will lead to a better job.
When I look back over my life what I see is a girl who became a woman who fought against the odds to try to remain true to herself. At times, this has cost me dearly - but I still try despite everything to remain true - to be me. This 'ME' is a constantly changing evolving creation/creature - human none-the-less. As I reflect on not just how I got here but the outlook/future ahead I feel content, despite frustrations - hopeful as always that the adventure will continue for a long time to come.
(Just kidding)
Anyhow...this weekend I will be passing another year mark in the 'awful rowing towards God' - as Anne Sexton calls it...
I feel it's time to take a bit of a life inventory.
The new job sucks - period. I use none of my 'creative juices' and it's my fault I admit - I took the first job I oculd - looking has become an exercise in futility {*gasp* I mentioned my futilities (sorry inside joke)}.
I have to get in better shape. I have to finish planning wedding stuff. I need to get more centered.
Last night, I applied to go to college for the spring term in 2009. We shall see where that leads. I think I am going to go to school on the weekends and try to re-shape my career - studying something meaningful and hopefully it will lead to a better job.
When I look back over my life what I see is a girl who became a woman who fought against the odds to try to remain true to herself. At times, this has cost me dearly - but I still try despite everything to remain true - to be me. This 'ME' is a constantly changing evolving creation/creature - human none-the-less. As I reflect on not just how I got here but the outlook/future ahead I feel content, despite frustrations - hopeful as always that the adventure will continue for a long time to come.
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