Bitter pills

I am slowly dying here. My level of apathy grows daily – drowning out everything else. I feel surrounded by likewise individuals who don’t seem to care either….the passion has been snuffed out and replaced by tepid/feigned interest at best. Constantly people behave this way - I mean is this how we are suppose to live our lives?

Why do people seemingly ‘fake it’ – why do they lie? Isn’t it better to just be honest? Even if the honesty is going to hurt someone – what type of betrayal is better? What makes people feel better in the long run – a little sugar with the medicine?

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I keep getting hit on at work and elsewhere. It's not always the same people...but it makes me wonder.

Why do we cheat on each other? Is it because we finally get fed up and tired of the SO in our life? Is it because we are bored? Is it because we are seeking attention? Is it because we are simply schmucks and don't give a fuck and have no self-control? Is it that we are missing something vital in our moral fiber?

A lot of guys when cheating have been known to say (about their SOs) - she just doesn't understand me anymore, she doesn't care, she ignores me...

Is it the same with women? Are women wired differently when it comes to this stuff - are we just constantly looking for affirmation and closeness/intimacy and when it's not forthcoming we finally break?

I just don't get things anymore....and it's scaring the hell out of me.