WTF????

Yeah…it’s like that…

What the feck is going on with me, lately?

I am so torn between the feelings raging within. I have so much going on in the way of conflict.

I feel forlorn, at times, sad. Is it too much to have the people who claim to care about me ASK me about my life – or at the very least ‘pretend’ to care? I think I am going to stop being so concerned about others and their lives. I give up. I want to see what happens when good ole’ C stops asking – just kind of glazes over and doesn’t say a friggin’ thing.

There are other energies at work as well. I feel on the brink of something really big and the potential for this is huge – beyond any scope I could ever envision – I am not sure I am up for the task.

Part of me wants to go away (yes the old ‘run away’ scenario) several of you who have listened/read me over the years know this ‘feeling’ of mine when it creeps in – I just want to go be a hermit. Take cover. Slip into a cave, be nothing, no one, fade away...perhaps people would notice – perhaps not – it’s not why I want to do that…it’s because I grow weary of this place and all that goes with it at times.