Scared...

To go to bed - tho' I desperately need the sleep.

I can't breathe - I was up nearly all night last night and, according to Erin I snored (how very attractive of me - but then so did he - meaning we kept each other up...)

Got my haircut today and she cut it too short - it looks cute but is way too short - why the heck can't I grow my hair out correctly?

Today marks the 8th anniversay of Erin and I meeting and well falling in love - we did not fall in love the day we met - but we connected. We've been connected ever since...

The weekend began a bit rough - still dealing with the fallout - I will not mention from what on here - and it pushed us against our boundaries - for good and for bad - only time will tell if we can get through these kind of ups and downs.

Tonight we watched 'Breakfast at Tiffany's' and the kids joined us - at one point his daughter K - snuggled in close to me and told me she loved me - with no prompting - it brought tears to my eyes.

(As an aside: I never realised how many times they mentioned that she didn't eat - well it was mainly Buddy Ebsen acting as a hick but still - as the original poster girl for anorexia you gotta admit it's pretty ironic - she was beautiful though).

I've been really emotional lately - I think I need a vacation or I am going to be in trouble - I need some respite from all that I am dealing with of late....I feel like I need to be Holly Golightly for some reason)...



*sighs*

I need to get to bed cause I want to try to go to mass tomorrow (duh today) - and I need to try to hook up with Mr. C - before he leaves for China...

...and it's so weird not being in bed next to Erin right now....

(Now Listening to (mystical stuff): Hidegard von Bingen, Sequentia, and The Hilliard Ensemble)