Putting my finger on 'IT'...
"To Your Scattered Bodies Go"
...yeah...
Part of this is when E is scattered/distracted so am I....
Part of it is my 'psyche' rears its ugly head in the form of being super sensitive to things that take place in the universe (like the needless killings at VA Tech). Part of it is the impact that the anniversaries of other mass killings (Oklahoma City is tomorrow, Columbine is Friday) still reverberate within the universe...
Part of it is planning for a wedding that I can't plan for...and I have never in my entire life been given so much advice from strangers about the process of annulment within the Catholic church....give me a break I AM a Catholic OK - I was raised on - I get it - you are preaching to the choir (pun intended)....
I recently heard from one of the girls at work, that not only have I set my date for sometime in July (we are actually shooting for June of 2008) but that my reception is going to be at the Renaissance Hotel here in Cleveburg - REALLY?????
Wow that's news to me....(*mutters something about people being idiots*)
I hate gossip. I hate negativity. I hate being made to feel like I am nagging, like I am pestering, like I am being a bitch. I hate being out of touch, disconnected, feeling off kilter and I am praying this all goes away soon....
I want a 'Calgon take me away' moment but I want it to be in the form of something more than merely soaking in a hot tub...
...yeah...
Part of this is when E is scattered/distracted so am I....
Part of it is my 'psyche' rears its ugly head in the form of being super sensitive to things that take place in the universe (like the needless killings at VA Tech). Part of it is the impact that the anniversaries of other mass killings (Oklahoma City is tomorrow, Columbine is Friday) still reverberate within the universe...
Part of it is planning for a wedding that I can't plan for...and I have never in my entire life been given so much advice from strangers about the process of annulment within the Catholic church....give me a break I AM a Catholic OK - I was raised on - I get it - you are preaching to the choir (pun intended)....
I recently heard from one of the girls at work, that not only have I set my date for sometime in July (we are actually shooting for June of 2008) but that my reception is going to be at the Renaissance Hotel here in Cleveburg - REALLY?????
Wow that's news to me....(*mutters something about people being idiots*)
I hate gossip. I hate negativity. I hate being made to feel like I am nagging, like I am pestering, like I am being a bitch. I hate being out of touch, disconnected, feeling off kilter and I am praying this all goes away soon....
I want a 'Calgon take me away' moment but I want it to be in the form of something more than merely soaking in a hot tub...
Labels: frustration, Life
posted by Colette at 3:41 PM
3 Comments:
I know for a fact that you have a gift card to the spa.
Are you sure it's not a matter of trying to control a universe that is WAY beyond our control. I find that life tends to unfold itself if you just let it be. I struggled with things (relationships, work) but then I decided that life's current is going to carry me where it may. I still have choices in life, don't get me wrong. But sometimes it's nice to just put yourself on auto pilot and let it all happen. Life really is the journey and NOT the destination. So sit back, have a refreshment from the stewardess, and just take in the scenery!
Liam...
I was kind of meaning more along the lines of the metaphysical 'universe' and it leaving an indelible stain on my psyche...
Yeah...I get the letting go of things and the submitting thing...let go, let God etc..it does not make it any easier.
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