WTF (revisited)
(yeah over and over again...)
What is the matter with people?
I have friends/family (mainly friends though) I try to talk to about what’s going on in my life.
I get told to ‘back off’ or ‘slow down’ – I am not asking them for their advice – necessarily. But I get told perhaps I need to take my time with my relationship now…well the time for that is passed. I should have gone slower earlier – it’s not like I can ‘take things back’. Besides I don’t want to.
What I don’t get is why can’t people just be happy for each other? Is that so difficult?
I am irritated about more than this – I am irritated about not being able to get my thoughts out coherently to the people I care the most about. I am irritated about my take on things being seen as perhaps ‘controlling’ or like I am asking for too much – but I don’t feel either I am being this way or that I am asking for too much – either way though I suppose it does not matter because the perception is in the eye of the beholder. So I guess if I feel I am being misunderstood or misrepresented – well too bad I suppose...oh well – it’s life – what else is new.
So I feel like I’ve lost something somewhere along the line – but I don’t know what it is or where I’ve misplaced what I’ve lost – but yet I feel the loss (deeply and I can't explain why), and it’s making me sad, irritable, and our of sorts...
What is the matter with people?
I have friends/family (mainly friends though) I try to talk to about what’s going on in my life.
I get told to ‘back off’ or ‘slow down’ – I am not asking them for their advice – necessarily. But I get told perhaps I need to take my time with my relationship now…well the time for that is passed. I should have gone slower earlier – it’s not like I can ‘take things back’. Besides I don’t want to.
What I don’t get is why can’t people just be happy for each other? Is that so difficult?
I am irritated about more than this – I am irritated about not being able to get my thoughts out coherently to the people I care the most about. I am irritated about my take on things being seen as perhaps ‘controlling’ or like I am asking for too much – but I don’t feel either I am being this way or that I am asking for too much – either way though I suppose it does not matter because the perception is in the eye of the beholder. So I guess if I feel I am being misunderstood or misrepresented – well too bad I suppose...oh well – it’s life – what else is new.
So I feel like I’ve lost something somewhere along the line – but I don’t know what it is or where I’ve misplaced what I’ve lost – but yet I feel the loss (deeply and I can't explain why), and it’s making me sad, irritable, and our of sorts...
posted by Colette at 2:18 PM
3 Comments:
Awww, I am so sorry mom, * HUGS* I wish people would just drop this alredy with you. you know what you should tell them , next time somone tells you rudely that mabey you outhg to slow down or rethink what your doing, tell them mabey they ought to rethink their own life and marriages!
I sincerely hope I haven't been one of those people telling you anything unpleasant. I'm extremely happy that you found the love of your life. We should all be so lucky. In the end, it's your inner voice that should have the most weight not what other people say. Be happy and know that I am happy for you. Your joy is my joy!
Thanks to you both for your support and love - Liam of course it isn't you - you have always been in my corner.
And darling Marissa - I love you with all my heart - and with the help of God and my family - I am trying to stay steadfast.
Just keep your good energy and prayers coming my way.
As always I thank you.
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