'Bad Moon Rising...'
Yeah.
I don’t know what’s going on lately. Just in general. I am on edge. Erin is on edge. Things have been stressful and difficult.
We are passionate. Passionate about each other, passionate about life, even passionate when we fight. How else could he and I possibly be with each other?
I think you get thrown challenges as a means of seeing if you are awake. Yeah I am awake - wide-fucking awake – you can stop with the ‘challenges’ now, sir.
We just passed our one year anniversary of dating. I believe as the ‘walls’ begin to come down and masks are removed we become less careful with each other – no longer acting like we are china cups, becoming plastic tumblers instead. There is still much to learn, yet.
I’ve had friends tell me not to expect to continue on in the same vein. That eventually the ‘newness’ fades, the romance wears off...dies at times. Really? Well I guess my question is: why is that? Why does it have to be that way? Furthermore, why should I settle for that? If I am going to have to become ordinary; If this relationship is going to just sink into the background, blending in with every other part of the landscape of my life, then I am not interested. Don’t get me wrong, life is going to have its ups and downs – I get that – but I want to live to the fullest and if there is no passion to me – there is no point.
Like I said, I don’t know what is going on lately….the universe seems out of whack…people I know are suffering, struggling, having hard times, fighting, arguing, being crabby, distracted, out of sorts….
...or maybe, it’s just me...
I don’t know what’s going on lately. Just in general. I am on edge. Erin is on edge. Things have been stressful and difficult.
We are passionate. Passionate about each other, passionate about life, even passionate when we fight. How else could he and I possibly be with each other?
I think you get thrown challenges as a means of seeing if you are awake. Yeah I am awake - wide-fucking awake – you can stop with the ‘challenges’ now, sir.
We just passed our one year anniversary of dating. I believe as the ‘walls’ begin to come down and masks are removed we become less careful with each other – no longer acting like we are china cups, becoming plastic tumblers instead. There is still much to learn, yet.
I’ve had friends tell me not to expect to continue on in the same vein. That eventually the ‘newness’ fades, the romance wears off...dies at times. Really? Well I guess my question is: why is that? Why does it have to be that way? Furthermore, why should I settle for that? If I am going to have to become ordinary; If this relationship is going to just sink into the background, blending in with every other part of the landscape of my life, then I am not interested. Don’t get me wrong, life is going to have its ups and downs – I get that – but I want to live to the fullest and if there is no passion to me – there is no point.
Like I said, I don’t know what is going on lately….the universe seems out of whack…people I know are suffering, struggling, having hard times, fighting, arguing, being crabby, distracted, out of sorts….
...or maybe, it’s just me...
Labels: Life
posted by Colette at 2:40 PM
2 Comments:
I think it's a global thing. I've been very irritable lately... and stressed... and just not feeling my normal self. Life is a rollercoaster, though. it will rebound.
True, relationships change constantly. They don't have to do so for the worse, but nothing is perfection daily. Love doesn't have to change, though. I hope for once things stay positive with you two for a very long time! You deserve some happiness in your life! *hug*
well i was blog hopping my links and came upon this post.. i guess most relationships always meet a turning point after exactly a year (based on my experience tho). it either turns up or goes down.. and i had an x bf who once confessed that 'the flame' only lasts for six months (for him tho)
but all i can say is hang in there.. sometimes it takes alot of patience and an open mind to have a relationship work out. have you been doing things together lately? may i advice a trip or something exciting to spice things up?
8)
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