Weather report...
Cloud cities form above me...
Dense, menacing, heavy – mirroring my mood. There are breaks in the patterns here and there – glimpses of blue skies, blinding white where the sun is being reflected…
I drive under the glowering sky immersed in my thoughts…and I think: I should just keep driving (Goddess that would feel so good)...
Why is it we get to a point in relationships where we can’t talk to one another anymore (the way perhaps we used to at one point)?
Why is it we become afraid of people we’ve known for years?
What happens to all those dynamics? What changes?
Beats the hell out of me; I grow weary though...very easily.
I get told all the time – we teach people how to treat us – for the most part I agree with that assessment – but there are just some people out there who treat everyone like their personal bitch. I know, I work with one of them. I have never told her this is the way to treat me – mainly because after all this time, I am still shocked every time I see a grown woman throw what literally amounts to a tantrum…do I tell her to throw tantrums? Um, No. Do I ask her to act like a spoiled, intolerant, judgmental bitch? Um, no I don’t. Can I fix this? No, not really – she is who she is and at the tender age of like 43, I don’t think she’s going to change anytime soon...
Geez...
Meanwhile I also don’t know how to deal with other aspects in other relationships. I seem to want to retreat. I get fearful, antsy, unsure, doubtful. There are just some things I am never going to be comfortable with/about. Things I feel that will eventually impact the relationship and change how we relate to each other. I lament the loss of the way things were during the ‘discovery phase’ – sometimes I think what happens is that you get to know each other so well that eventually the familiarity of it all truly does breed contempt, or boredom….or just plain forgetting how it was at the beginning and not knowing – or remembering I guess how to connect (reconnect) again with each other...
I’ve been waking in the mornings lately to dreary skies...love this weather. Love being stormy – within and without...I just wish there was some way to reconcile some of these issues...
Dense, menacing, heavy – mirroring my mood. There are breaks in the patterns here and there – glimpses of blue skies, blinding white where the sun is being reflected…
I drive under the glowering sky immersed in my thoughts…and I think: I should just keep driving (Goddess that would feel so good)...
Why is it we get to a point in relationships where we can’t talk to one another anymore (the way perhaps we used to at one point)?
Why is it we become afraid of people we’ve known for years?
What happens to all those dynamics? What changes?
Beats the hell out of me; I grow weary though...very easily.
I get told all the time – we teach people how to treat us – for the most part I agree with that assessment – but there are just some people out there who treat everyone like their personal bitch. I know, I work with one of them. I have never told her this is the way to treat me – mainly because after all this time, I am still shocked every time I see a grown woman throw what literally amounts to a tantrum…do I tell her to throw tantrums? Um, No. Do I ask her to act like a spoiled, intolerant, judgmental bitch? Um, no I don’t. Can I fix this? No, not really – she is who she is and at the tender age of like 43, I don’t think she’s going to change anytime soon...
Geez...
Meanwhile I also don’t know how to deal with other aspects in other relationships. I seem to want to retreat. I get fearful, antsy, unsure, doubtful. There are just some things I am never going to be comfortable with/about. Things I feel that will eventually impact the relationship and change how we relate to each other. I lament the loss of the way things were during the ‘discovery phase’ – sometimes I think what happens is that you get to know each other so well that eventually the familiarity of it all truly does breed contempt, or boredom….or just plain forgetting how it was at the beginning and not knowing – or remembering I guess how to connect (reconnect) again with each other...
I’ve been waking in the mornings lately to dreary skies...love this weather. Love being stormy – within and without...I just wish there was some way to reconcile some of these issues...
Labels: Life, Musings, Relationship
posted by Colette at 8:15 AM
2 Comments:
As for how people treat you, I'm sure no one has ever suggested you've asked to be treated like crap. The real problem of course is that some people just don't have a clue they're being a bitch or they are mentally deficient and incapable of changing their actions.
Speaking of changing, with us what's different now than from the "discovery phase"? I don't think too much has changed other than we are no willing to share the less than positive things in our lives, and that in turn opens up the possibility of discussions about how to deal with things. So what would make you feel more comfortable about the things you are antsy about? All I can offer is my words of faith and love for you and our relationship, and show you as time passes that I mean them to their fullest intent.
I love you.
I love this post because it's so honest. Most bloggers don't seem to be so honest. I've been out of the blogging loop for some time and use to converse with you from my FrenchIndian blog. I became disheartened with people who would come to my site the same way you describe this acquaintance/coworker.
We do not ask people to treat us badly. We run into people who treat us badly and sometimes, for some of us, it takes a while to figure out how to tell them to stop.
As you know, I'm sure, it's just a matter of time but I don't buy this new ideology that we ask people to treat us like their personal bitch. I don't buy it at all.
After a while, when we get over the shell shock, we learn how to delete their ________(fill in the blank). I'm trying to learn that now.
Anyway, it's good to see you're still blogging. I disappeared because I ran into some weird stuff. But I'm looking up old blogs I had bookmarked. I deleted all the other links I use to have and I put yours back on my blog, I hope you don't mind.
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