*shivers*

So...just a persistent feeling of desperation...disturbing...discomfort...

I am sure it can now be attributed to the movie I just watched (yeah it's like watching someone commit suicide...); but last night on the way home while driving on the freeway I got into a lane behind an ambulance and the person on the gurney was sitting up and he looked so sick and it just really took me to a place I didn't want to be - again like watching that car accident that you don't want to watch but you can't seem to look away - I was seeing more than I wanted to see; seeing more than I was meant to see - his anonymity stripped bare and his mortality flashing, like a neon sign - a show for all those who could look through the little square windows and be silent witness to the entire drama....death hovering and laughing, sneering...

Makes me want to call the company and tell them to put drapes on those windows....

*shivers*

(I just don't know, suddenly I find myself in such a mood - I guess it's explainable - C2's right I need to go to a beach somewhere and relax)

I think I am going to go take a nap and hope not to have nightmares....