Surprising sweetness....
I am trying in my mind to sort through things, label them, and carefully file them away.
Tribe tells me (and another couple of friends have said this too) that I sabotage things – I think too much. They are right. I need to relax.
Is it really so hard to just enjoy happiness for me? Is that where the problems start for me? I am apparently unable to stop and smell the roses of something that’s beautiful without questioning, wondering, 2nd guessing? Geez….
Since I’ve been seeing this man my life has gone through a metamorphosis – I am not saying he was the entire reason – it is high time I changed my life a bit – my outlook. He’s a catalyst – not the entire impetus for the change. He makes me think and feel differently. As always, I am amazed at the power of love – yes I will use the ‘love’ word in conjunction with him.
The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of activity between us. Not that it’s that we are in some sort of frantic scramble or our schedules are some sort of horrendous nightmare to be worked out (although our schedules ARE pretty different). We get together and we relax with one another. We do things and thoroughly enjoy ourselves. I won’t say there have not been any tense moments there have, there have been little ‘tiffs’ but nothing to suggest that there are going to be issues or problems in the future that we won’t be able to handle.
I want to write so much more here – you guys have no idea. I want to honor us, though – protect us from the prying or from me saying something that might jinx my good fortune (and I am NOT superstitious). You may however let your imaginations wander and yes it is as good as you think it is (LOL whatever THAT means to/for you).
As a practitioner of Wicca as well as a student of Eastern mysticism, I believe very strongly in things such as fate/kismet/karma. I truly believe I am due for some happiness (way overdue). I have done work in the mystical arena – not to necessarily bring me a lover – but asking the universe/Goddess/God whatever to ease some of my sorrow, and as a friend had expressed to me a year or so back, the TYPE of lover/partner I wanted in my life. He is all that and more. It’s like someone read my mind and sent me an Angel.
I have so much in my heart – I feel so full so happy – unbelievably so….
The conversations – I can not seem to stop thinking about HOW we talk, THAT we talk – you guys must think I am nuts, but this guy REALLY talks to me – he asks me things about what I say to him – in other words HE LISTENS TO ME and then RESPONDS. We reverberate and resonate within each other to each other. There is a magical quality about this relationship, I am amazed, delighted, enchanted – like the song, bewitched, bothered and bewildered but apply all the positive magical energy instead and you have US.
Tribe tells me (and another couple of friends have said this too) that I sabotage things – I think too much. They are right. I need to relax.
Is it really so hard to just enjoy happiness for me? Is that where the problems start for me? I am apparently unable to stop and smell the roses of something that’s beautiful without questioning, wondering, 2nd guessing? Geez….
Since I’ve been seeing this man my life has gone through a metamorphosis – I am not saying he was the entire reason – it is high time I changed my life a bit – my outlook. He’s a catalyst – not the entire impetus for the change. He makes me think and feel differently. As always, I am amazed at the power of love – yes I will use the ‘love’ word in conjunction with him.
The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of activity between us. Not that it’s that we are in some sort of frantic scramble or our schedules are some sort of horrendous nightmare to be worked out (although our schedules ARE pretty different). We get together and we relax with one another. We do things and thoroughly enjoy ourselves. I won’t say there have not been any tense moments there have, there have been little ‘tiffs’ but nothing to suggest that there are going to be issues or problems in the future that we won’t be able to handle.
I want to write so much more here – you guys have no idea. I want to honor us, though – protect us from the prying or from me saying something that might jinx my good fortune (and I am NOT superstitious). You may however let your imaginations wander and yes it is as good as you think it is (LOL whatever THAT means to/for you).
As a practitioner of Wicca as well as a student of Eastern mysticism, I believe very strongly in things such as fate/kismet/karma. I truly believe I am due for some happiness (way overdue). I have done work in the mystical arena – not to necessarily bring me a lover – but asking the universe/Goddess/God whatever to ease some of my sorrow, and as a friend had expressed to me a year or so back, the TYPE of lover/partner I wanted in my life. He is all that and more. It’s like someone read my mind and sent me an Angel.
I have so much in my heart – I feel so full so happy – unbelievably so….
The conversations – I can not seem to stop thinking about HOW we talk, THAT we talk – you guys must think I am nuts, but this guy REALLY talks to me – he asks me things about what I say to him – in other words HE LISTENS TO ME and then RESPONDS. We reverberate and resonate within each other to each other. There is a magical quality about this relationship, I am amazed, delighted, enchanted – like the song, bewitched, bothered and bewildered but apply all the positive magical energy instead and you have US.
posted by Colette at 1:13 PM
1 Comments:
Even though I haven't seen alot of you since this began I can sense the difference.
You deserve every ounce of happiness you get in this world. If this man facilitates your happiness, then that's an amazing thing!
Treasure it for what it is.
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