Getting the Cosmic Joke

Tonight, I’ve been asked to teach Yoga to a group of morbidly obese teens. I am kind of nervous. Not because I don’t think I can teach them. I always get nervous when I am dealing with a ‘special’ or delicate group – like when I taught liver transplant patients who were very ill.

We are only going to be able to do seated and standing asanas. So the trick is to keep them engaged and to keep them enthused and have them view their bodies as ‘can do’ - little (sorry – not so little), engines that can vs. viewing their bodies as failures/the enemy/engines that can’t. My hope is that it will help.

The Yoga is really beginning to be almost too much for me to handle. I am getting kind of frightened in some ways about this – only because it’s starting to be as much as a full-time position….even more so, I need to hire an accountant.

Life is funny. I feel my life is so full of wonderful, interesting events/people – I feel very blessed. I still feel lacking though – sort of ‘lost at sea’ and wanting. Yet, I don’t really want for anything – perhaps a better home life. Perhaps wanting more of Erin (I’m being a tad selfish I suppose). Yet it’s there. I am trying however to maintain that sacred sense of balance. Not getting caught in the ‘trap’ – even if it is a tender trap – of desire – of wanting/needing. I need to remember to keep ‘getting’ the ‘cosmic joke’ as my teacher/guru would say.

Yes God/Goddess thank you so much for all the blessings you’ve seen fit to bestow upon me – my gratitude is as over-flowing as my heart, with joy and grace.