'Just get me to the church on time...'
There’s so much I want to say. For once in my life, words seem to fail me.
I am jittery, nervous – ‘Cat on a Hot Tin Roof’ comes to mind – although without the Elizabeth Taylor gorgeous bitchiness – but a bit of bitchiness would serve me well right now – and I am sure if you asked him, Erin might say I am being a bit bitchy….
I have a lot of little things to get done. There have been some emotional upheavals. I’d like to vent and I’ve been sort of asked to…
I will vent about one cruelty and be done with it…
This weekend, I was speaking with my ex (my son’s father) about getting married in general (because of the logistics involving my son and other reasons) – he managed to blurt out I would be divorced in 2 years time (I of course told him he was full of shit) – I had a Ken Y~ (BTW go to hell Mr Y~) moment. He was being negative, and cruel, for no other reason than to be so – petty jealousy….but why? I am not going to deny that there may be residue of feeling still lingering – not on both sides of this divorced fence (well, not mine anyway)….but perhaps on his end and I am not trying to sound like I am all that and a bag of chips. But he has always been a bit vindictive…so be it. I called Erin on my way back home and I was crying so hard I had to get off the phone…I know I upset Erin…
Why do people do such things? Even if you do think that of one of your friends, exes, acquaintances, family members – unless they ask you shouldn’t you just shut the fuck up? Why are people so willing to visit their negativity on others? Why are people so mean and cruel?
As far as venting about the wedding – I just want things to be done so I can get on with the sacredness of the ceremony, my honeymoon, and loving Erin.
The reasons why I love this man have been documented over and over in this forum…they are too many to mention here again. As innumerable as the stars in the heavens….I will list off two…
Up until yesterday, when my daughter gave birth to her 5th child safely, I had a knot in my stomach – not only did he know that he had a knot in his stomach too – we are so very empathic with each other that it actually scares me at times and assures me that metaphysical powers DO indeed exist in humans.
He counted all the favors for the tables to be sure we have enough….
I am going to let that last on sink in for a moment…..
To my darling daughter – congrats Rissa I love you with all my heart. To my new grandson – welcome to the world little one.
To my family – thank you for all of your love and support.
To Liam, Ken and Chris – my favourite metaphysical ghost hunters the same to all of you.
To those of you out here in blogdom who have been reading and commenting or commenting off line to me – thank you for all of your kindnesses.
To the love of my life….
I will walk down the aisle to meet you in our sacred space and, in front of God, our family and our friends I will pledge my life to you, as well as my heart and mind and soul to our love. Always and forever, I love you Erin.
I am jittery, nervous – ‘Cat on a Hot Tin Roof’ comes to mind – although without the Elizabeth Taylor gorgeous bitchiness – but a bit of bitchiness would serve me well right now – and I am sure if you asked him, Erin might say I am being a bit bitchy….
I have a lot of little things to get done. There have been some emotional upheavals. I’d like to vent and I’ve been sort of asked to…
I will vent about one cruelty and be done with it…
This weekend, I was speaking with my ex (my son’s father) about getting married in general (because of the logistics involving my son and other reasons) – he managed to blurt out I would be divorced in 2 years time (I of course told him he was full of shit) – I had a Ken Y~ (BTW go to hell Mr Y~) moment. He was being negative, and cruel, for no other reason than to be so – petty jealousy….but why? I am not going to deny that there may be residue of feeling still lingering – not on both sides of this divorced fence (well, not mine anyway)….but perhaps on his end and I am not trying to sound like I am all that and a bag of chips. But he has always been a bit vindictive…so be it. I called Erin on my way back home and I was crying so hard I had to get off the phone…I know I upset Erin…
Why do people do such things? Even if you do think that of one of your friends, exes, acquaintances, family members – unless they ask you shouldn’t you just shut the fuck up? Why are people so willing to visit their negativity on others? Why are people so mean and cruel?
As far as venting about the wedding – I just want things to be done so I can get on with the sacredness of the ceremony, my honeymoon, and loving Erin.
The reasons why I love this man have been documented over and over in this forum…they are too many to mention here again. As innumerable as the stars in the heavens….I will list off two…
Up until yesterday, when my daughter gave birth to her 5th child safely, I had a knot in my stomach – not only did he know that he had a knot in his stomach too – we are so very empathic with each other that it actually scares me at times and assures me that metaphysical powers DO indeed exist in humans.
He counted all the favors for the tables to be sure we have enough….
I am going to let that last on sink in for a moment…..
To my darling daughter – congrats Rissa I love you with all my heart. To my new grandson – welcome to the world little one.
To my family – thank you for all of your love and support.
To Liam, Ken and Chris – my favourite metaphysical ghost hunters the same to all of you.
To those of you out here in blogdom who have been reading and commenting or commenting off line to me – thank you for all of your kindnesses.
To the love of my life….
I will walk down the aisle to meet you in our sacred space and, in front of God, our family and our friends I will pledge my life to you, as well as my heart and mind and soul to our love. Always and forever, I love you Erin.
posted by Colette at 8:07 AM
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It's unfortunate you feel forced to censored yourself. Perhaps the complaining individual should read certain commentaries on civil law:
Libel/Slander:
http://w2.eff.org/bloggers/lg/faq-defamation.php
Stalking/Cyberstalking:
http://lawcrawler.findlaw.com/MAD/faqabout.htm
Now for the positive post...
We're 10 short on the wedding favors. I'll run out and get some more tomorrow when I go out and get the new shredder (so we can co-mingle all our old tax information after shredding).
80 is a good number of friends and family to have at our wedding and reception. More than enough to help us through life and give us enough blessings to help thwart the intentions of those who would wish us harm, but not so many that you wonder if they are really there out of desire or obligation.
I love you very much and have been waiting for nearly a year and half for next Saturday to come. Like an ocean wave of refreshing coolness against the warm and tanned skin long sated in the comfort of the summer sun.
See you in the morning M'Love
SirErin
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