"God is a bullet, have mercy on us, everyone."
(Now listening to: Concrete Blonde: 'Recollection')
Darkness descends upon me....
I am feeling these 'energies' so acutely. I am trying to sort through them, without much luck.
There's just some recent events that have triggered this dissatisfaction to come bubbling to the surface - I want to go to my room and lock out the world.
I am wondering about certain 'issues' in my life, about my relationships and thinking about whether I should even open my mouth of if actions (or I am thinking inaction), will just speak the loudest. Perhaps I should just back off for a while and see what happens - again the doubts - I've tried 'turning them over' but they aren't budging and it really is beginning to give me pause. I am tired of being the one giving the most all the time (it has nothing to do with that compassionate streak I seem to possess which I wish I could rid myself of at times). I am just tired and it's time to stop. Oh well...if things are meant to pan out they will - if not so be it....
Darkness descends upon me....
I am feeling these 'energies' so acutely. I am trying to sort through them, without much luck.
There's just some recent events that have triggered this dissatisfaction to come bubbling to the surface - I want to go to my room and lock out the world.
I am wondering about certain 'issues' in my life, about my relationships and thinking about whether I should even open my mouth of if actions (or I am thinking inaction), will just speak the loudest. Perhaps I should just back off for a while and see what happens - again the doubts - I've tried 'turning them over' but they aren't budging and it really is beginning to give me pause. I am tired of being the one giving the most all the time (it has nothing to do with that compassionate streak I seem to possess which I wish I could rid myself of at times). I am just tired and it's time to stop. Oh well...if things are meant to pan out they will - if not so be it....
2 Comments:
Am I missing something? If so fill me in so I can: improve if you're talking about me, or give you support if you're not.
I don't know if you are missing things or not. I HAVE told you how I feel - I do so nearly every day....
I don't want you to feel like you are some kind of 'project' or something that needs improved upon - nor do I want this relationship to be/feel that way...but I do want romance and all that goes with that...I hope that is not expecting too much....it's all a matter of longing and not wanting to feel as if I am being a pest I suppose....
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