Too close to home

NPR - On Philip Seymour Hoffman, And His Many Appearances

This breaks my heart....and it hits way to close to home, for obvious reasons.  Every.Single.Time. I hear these stories, I die a little inside.  The fear that I try my damndest to keep at bay, settles inside my heart and mind to roost for a while...

I battle with my dread, and I hold my breath all over again...and there isn't a fucking thing I can do, except pray, pray that I will never get one of those calls myself...

I am so sorry for this loss, for his family, and for us...it is a battle we seemingly cannot win - or somehow don't know how to....