Ring of Fire....

I am in love. I am blissfully happy. I have been once again ‘talking’ to my love and I am sure he thinks I am crazed (I am). I am (I am sure) driving him crazy as well...

What happens is that I bring up ‘hypotheticals’ I talk about what happens when we wake up one fateful morning and one of us (or both) thinks ‘WTF am I doing with you?’ – it happens – it did with me in both of my marriages. Not because I did not like the person anymore but because we had grown so far apart that I didn’t recognize them anymore and I didn’t know what had compelled me to marry them to begin with – for they had (as we all do invariably) changed; Changed so drastically that had I met them at this point I would probably not have been friends with them – let alone fallen in love with them.

At what point do we change like that? How do we make sure that despite our changing as we evolve, that we don’t leave behind our partner? The key as Erin and I have discussed ad nauseum is communication. You tell your partner you are unhappy and you work from there – unhappy seems pretty strong – so does dissatisfied – so what do you say to your S.O. when you wake up feeling like you should have never gotten married in the first place?

I am not a big proponent of marriage (you all know this or you don’t know me very well) – however when I think about marriage it’s not marriage I am against (I’ve said this before) – what I hate is what happens to us as people WHEN we tie that knot – it all becomes unraveled and you are left feeling like perfect strangers to each other. Unless. Unless you can manage to stay tied/connected to each other. I have to say that I don’t feel this is going to be a problem with Erin – which is why I said yes to him.

I am incredibly lucky and I can’t for the life of me figure out what made him ask me, why he is this much in love with me. I am not trying to look a gift horse in the mouth – I just get to feeling like its all some surreal dream from which I will awaken soon, and this 'fantasy' will have never happened...

He sets my heart, my mind and my soul on fire. His touch makes me weak. He lingers with me all day and he is always on my mind. Even though I’ve been in love before and happily married before I have NEVER felt this happy or intense over anyone. Above is a picture that very closely resembles what my ring looks like (with the exception of the band you see in the picture). Every time I look at my diamond I can see the fire and the brilliance that calls to mind this love of mine. Like my ring – this love is made to last forever and I have hope that it will bear all things, believe all things, hope all things, and endure all things...

(As an aside - it seems everytime we go to mass together there is a reading about love or marriage or something related to all of this - how cool is that?)