So much to say...so little reason to say it...
Obviously there's been struggle lately...blah, blah, blah, yadda, yadda, yadda....who cares. And I am not trying to go to the 'woe is me' place or make you all (whoever the fuck YOU ALL are anymore) - feel bad. There's just been a lot of sorrow lately and my level of 'who-gives-a-shit' is kind of broke. For many reasons...
There a things I'd like to write about but then, I can't seem to drum up the energy/willingness to do so...
Everything is lackluster and a burden....and there seems to be no end in site to the mundane drudgery that has become my life.
I try to find a reason to be excited or enthralled and I find nothing. I am tired - I think that is the bottom line. 50+ years on this planet and not much to show for it....and maybe it's what everyone does when they get here - to this point....they look back and wonder: How did I get here? What was the point of all of this? - and then they try to fill up their lives with fun!exciting! 'things'.....a race car, a newer-younger model of their significant other, a trip around the world...etc. Not sure if it helps...I am pretty sure though that we all face this.
I have had little victories...the biggest one involves me being with Erin and the fact that he let me help him with a project that he had a great deal of passion for. 'We' (and I use this term loosely - because mainly it's HIM) - have published a book. I am very proud of the work and effort my husband put into this venture. And I want this to be a success - and I so far judge this as a success because it is a completed work. AND we have SOLD the books. You can find the information here:
https://www.createspace.com/3815042
The book is called "Rosary Illuminations" and the work is beautiful and meditative in it's nature. It is also a tribute to the history, art, and people of the Diocese of Cleveland. I hope you will take a look and I hope even more you will purchase the book....not to try to plug it for me - but more for my husband who poured his soul into this project.
As for me, I will continue to trudge onward and seek out interesting things and reasons to keep on keepin' on - even if it's just surface right now...it is in the end all I have.
