...me....cause it's ALL about ME on here....and obviously as I get older, I am too feeble to even post on time for my own birthday.
Seriously.
I had the most wonderful evening with my husband. He took me to a trendy French restaurant to celebrate my birthday and gave me lovely presents. The greatest present of all is that I get to be married to him. Day after day and year after year it becomes more evident that I am blessed to be with Erin.
I have had ups and downs - lately, I've been more down that up - life changes, family stuff, work stuff, you name it. Like all of us who think, I look around me and just try to fathom what the hell is going on with the universe. It's so hard to try to keep a handle on the day-to-day stuff let alone getting introspective or philosophical about the serious stuff going on on planet earth.
I know this much - we need to stop fighting each other and put aside our differences and put our energies towards fighting REAL causes and bringing about REAL change. Call me crazy, or a dreamer, but I truly believe that unless we focus more on peace, helping our fellow man, we are doomed.
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Updates -
I am working/gainfully employed. Lets' just say that the job is a challenge, and well...outright unusual - I mean how often do you get e-mails involving the Illuminati at YOUR job? The scope, the situations I find myself in...they are not your typical marketing fare. The drive is killing me - thank you gas prices and unstable world economy. I am hoping to negotiate something like working from home and of course better pay.
Family stuff continues to be difficult at times. Again, those I love suffer and struggle and my heart aches...I feel helpless and unable to really help - other than just 'be there' for people. I know that matters - but it feels woefully inadequate. When I go to gatherings of friends and fellow church members, those who have children with similar stories share a knowing look with me and we ask each other....'is it any better for your son or daughter?' Often, the answer is not a positive one. But we all hold onto that slim hope that someday, things will be better.
As I muse about life and the world, I wonder how to get my step-kids away from the constant barrage of their electronic gadgetry, sometimes I think a 'no-electronics night' is in order. I am not sure how feasible this is with two teens in the house. But still, there is something inherently evil with my step-daughter listening to 'Jessie's Girl' on DS 'Guitar Hero'. My step-son is literally addicted to his cell phone and locks himself in his room....again this is probably all to be expected...but it's hard to bear at times.
I just hope that as they age, they are able to master certain social graces and be able to look people in the eye and have meaningful conversations.
I look forward to this year - with the hopes that I will age (somewhat) gracefully - and experience successes in terms of work, life, love and other things that matter.
Labels: Birthdays, Family and Life
